One Week Later

In my last post I shared my response to the Mormon Churches new policy of excluding children of LGBTQ couples from Gospel ordinances as a way to protect them and not cause division between families.I don’t think they knew the ramifications of this decision but they are definitely feeling it now. Estimations are that thousands have put in their name from removal of the records of the Church. Many of these are people who essentially left already but like me, didn’t want to play the name removal game. But visiting some forums that I’m a part of I have seen many many people stating that this decision tied it for them. They will never return to the Mormon Church and they will not have their name associated with a Church that would exclude innocent children like this. The aftershocks of this are going to be felt for months and years to come.

It’s been a week since the policy change was announced and I’m in a much different place. I feel like over the course of 4 days I went through all the stages of a grief. It was a quite a roller coaster ride! I never knew I could feel so much, so passionately, so deeply, so quickly. I cried off and on for days. It consumed every thought, waking and sleeping, when I could sleep at all. By Monday I was sick. I had a headache for 3 days straight. I couldn’t go on like this for much longer. I knew something had to give and I had to just let it all go. It was time for the Mormon Church to be a part of my past and no longer part of my present or future. I prayed Monday as I fell asleep for God to take the pain, the heartbreak, the sorrow, the fear. And He did. I woke up Tuesday feeling peace, something I hadn’t felt for days. I knew without a doubt that I was making the right decision to officially leave the Mormon Church and no longer allow it or it’s policy to control any part of my life. I feel ready to move on. I will always look back on my time as a Mormon with fondness. I learned so much there and the lessons I learned helped to shape the person that I am today. I will always love the people who were in my life then and I hope that I will have them in my life forever, although I know some of them may decide they can’t have me in their lives due to my positions on homosexuality and other doctrines and policies of the Church. That is their decision and I wish them well as they move on in their life.

Growing up I remember hearing this song sung at the end of General Conference sessions and it always brought tears to my eyes. I think it will remain one of my favorite songs for the rest of my life. I leave it here today as a prayer: a prayer for peace, for healing, for understanding, for love, for tolerance. Amen.

Family Time Friday

I’ve talked before about growing up Latter-Day Saint and how the church really emphasizes family time. In fact Mondays are set aside by the church as time to spend together as a family. No meetings or anything are scheduled on Mondays so as to not interfere with this. As the kids have gotten older Steven and I really want to enjoy more family time during the week. We get to spend quite a bit of time together on the weekends but our weeks are crazy busy! And outside of dinner time it feels like we can go days without spending any meaningful time together. Last week Brianna asked if we could play some family games after dinner. We looked at each other and said “You know what…that’s a great idea!” So we played Headbandz and Apples to Apples JR. It was a lot of fun! And we realized we really need to make sure we are taking time each week for some family fun.

We have a lot going on in our country right now. There is a lot of stress and a lot of tension and a lot of blame going around. And if you are like us the TV has been tuned a little too much to CNN. But Wednesday evening we turned off the news and turned on

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Steven came home from Boy Scouts with Jonah on Tuesday and had bought the DVD for the kids. They were running a sale at our Kroger that you might want to check out too. Buy the DVD and get a box of microwavable popcorn and 2 boxes of movie theater style candy for free! Not a bad deal and a nice treat for the kids. Candy is not something we keep in the house regularly.

This movie is adorable! It is one of those perfect movies that both kids and adults will love! And it’s funny, and not just in an adult humor way like movies like Shrek. It is really genuinely funny! We really enjoyed our family time together watching this great movie! It was the perfect way to step back from some of the chaos in our Nation’s Capital right now and take a breather. I highly recommend everyone find some time to do that this weekend! We could all use a break from the crazy!

Just in case you’ve been living in a cave (get it?!!? The Croods are cavemen!! Ok…moving on!!) here is a trailer for the movie.

 I hope you find some time this weekend to enjoy some quality time together as a family! We plan on making some more memories this weekend with a company picnic on Saturday and a Baptism on Sunday. Woot-woot!! Have a great one!